I hear the panic in my sons voice and my heart skips a beat.
My mind begins to race and my breathing quickens.
“MUM! Come quick! I need you NOW!”
“What is it? What’s happened?”
I’m not sure if I should be running yet. Dropping whatever I am doing.
“Just please come. I really need you. It’s really bad.”
Oh great, I think to myself.
He doesn’t sound hurt or in any real trouble.
I begin to mutter under my breath.
What’s he done now.
What mess am I going to encounter.
Don’t cry over spilt milk.
I’m already feeling the frustration and annoyance building.
From being interrupted.
And who knows what I will be greeted with when I reach the so called emergency.
Trying to get a task done can sometimes seem impossible.
Always distractions, an inconvenience.
A problem. Someone else’s problem.
I very quickly forget the grace I’ve been given.
The undeserved kindness and over extravagant love.
What the gospel really means in a life transformed.
And we all have our own mess.
Or we feel like a mess sometimes.
Our lives are messy.
Not always going according to plan.
And we do make mistakes.
All of us.
And what then of this grace?
It mustn’t always be convenient to show grace.
Otherwise it wouldn’t be grace.
But what is the gospel if we can’t come just as we are.
Warts and all.
Fears and failures.
Mistakes and mess.
And call out to the one who is good.
Always so very good.
And ask for help.
I’ve made a mistake.
I’ve made a mess of my life.
I was wrong.
Do I really believe the gospel is for me?
Do I believe in a God who would really do all that He could for me in my messiest, darkest moment, so that I could have life?
The miracle of this inconvenient gospel.
That is ready to get involved with my mess.
Prepared to drop everything to meet me.
Not concerned about the distraction, the inconvenience of my mess.
That what is broken is made whole. What is lost is found. What is empty is made full. What is darkness is made light. What is dead is given life.
This miraculous, ridiculous gospel.
That embraces me.
“But because of his great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy, made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in transgressions – it is by grace you have been saved” Ephesians 2:4